TinyUnicorn

Unspoken things on my mind....

There are things that always be the one which is hard to explain yet to tell others. But that doesn't meant that I'm hiding that ONE big thing which I've never done. By saying this, I just wanna make it clear that people always have their own secret. And by that, it doesn't make any sense that you can accuse them to be the bad guy for having or keeping secrets. There's always a reason behind every action. Whether it is a good nor bad thing, only we, ourselves know and willing to take that risk.

Ya, sya mengaku saya takut untuk berterus-terang kadang2. Tapi itu x bermakna itulah diri saya. mungkin banyak kali suda saya buat, and I'm sorry for that. Really sorry.

Saya tahu akibat dia, and tu cuma kelegaan yang smentara org cakap. Tapi sometimes, we're facing a different person with different personality. And some people are very good with words, and they really good at manipoulating stuff. That is one of the type which is kinda hard for some people to be honest with. Even thou' it isn't the right thing to do, but try to see it in our way. You'll understand us, except if you don't wanna understand us literally, then you'll see us in only one way, 'a liar'.

I shouldn't be talking about this kind of thing, but I don't have the guts to share it with anyone, even thou' the person whom I really bond with. Best friends? Do they really gonna understand me? Real friends? Do they really gonna support me? True Friends? Will they be here and comfort me? Family? I love them so much, but I don't think that they will understand me neither. Seriously, Im like a black sheep on this family.

I really wanna share things with them, but for what they see it, all the things that I say is only a rubbish to them. wasting time and doesn't make any sense. That is why I rather kept things by myself. I feel better that way. But the consequences? You gotta endure anything yourself.

Sometimes I was wondering, If someday I die in any accident. A car crash for an example, will they cry for me? Or they'll be so relieve that less one person that is always so damn annoying and make their life's hard has gone forever from this world. I wonder how they feel about it. Nah, I think that's too much. Like I said, millions of things are inside my damn head. I got lots of things, a better one to think about. But I just can't help it. See? This is the reason why I really need somebody to talk to.

Ahh feelings.. Better wrote them here than share it with anyone else. They'll just giving an advice WHICH I would consider myself as a better Psychiatric. I'm a good adviser, you know? Especially when it comes about love life. LOL. My cousins always seek for my advice thru' Whatsapp. And when I didn't reply them, they'll seek me thru' FB messages. Even my workmate also did the same too! :D I guess experiences taught us a lot of things, huh? Yeah.~ And the funny thing is, none any of my advice are suits me. I meant, I did gave lots of advice to people, but I've never really used them to myself. IDK why.

I guess that is all for now. I just wanna update something here. Its been a while since the last day I updated things here. Last night I slept around 5+ am. Or should I say, this morning? lol. Silly me, I drank the whole glass of coffee.

Now I know why people are depending on coffee to make them stay up late. Adult thingy, I don't give much attention to it before, and now I know.